i got married at 18, yes a lot of people said your too young to get married.
yeah, at the time i thought all those people were stupid for saying that.
At 18 your an adult, and you can vote, drink and do adult things, but now i see
the point in what they were saying.
i went from home with mom to married in less then two months. no time on my own.
no time to see things in the world that i had a chance in seeing with my own eyes.
i have always had one or two good friends. but when i married it was all about his friends, mine fell to the way side and i did not try to keep in contact. which was a good idea, because now they are all either divorce and remarried to scums or single and drug addicts.
once married we could have gone out on vacations to see things and we did a few times.
but now with a kid there is not time to do things by our selves. which i understand completely.
she needs attention and to be taken care of.
but my point in this is i now have friends that i love spending time with. they make me feel good about being me. they are there when i need them to be. "F" is too, but in his eyes "L" comes first.
i want to shout" WHAT ABOUT ME?" what about the things i want to do?
what about a weekend away from all that drives me nuts?
we spent a full week with the "family" in disney which was nice and relaxing to a degree.
the following weekend was fathers day weekend , which we spent with the "family" again.
and now this weekend, again with the "family". honestly, why so much "family time"?
i want to do things this summer and i guess i made the mistake to ASK for permission.
i should have said "I am going". i was shot down with the reply that "what about our familt vacation"?
no once have i ever said no you can not go to this and that with so and so.....not once.
he needs a hobby. and no, "L" is not a hobby.
this entry is crazy....from point to point. but it's out there.
i know a marriage is a two way street, but i am going the wrong way on a one way street.
it's give and take, but i give everyday the best i can, but i want to take things too.
spoiled? brat? nope i don't think so.
i need to talk more to "F" and let him know what i think.
i do not mind spending "family" time with them but every weekend or every other weekend is enough.
so in five weeks, i will be at home watching tv or cleaning the house or doing something to kill the time, when i could be enjoying my hobby life with friends.
that sounds selfish.
and to close, dad i will call you later in the week. i really do not feel like talking right now.
why did i ever get into scrapbooking? it's taken over my life