Monday, June 30, 2008
they had a skit of the country's history, it was really cool to go from beginning to now.
then the video.
over the past years i have always kept September 11, 2001 close to my heart and soul.
the video showed the plane crashing in to the towers. i broke. seeing that moment totally rushed all the bad memories back in to my head. the plane, then the next plane. the falling of the towers , the pentagon, the field in Pennsylvania, the calls to family members...
today i am going over those visions in my head... i know the world is not fair, but you really have to think about what the plan is....
other then that, it was a good weekend. me and F talked and actually L was in a good mood this weekend. me and her spent some good time together and talked.
she is only 6, but she knows right from wrong and it's nice to be able to talk to your children about things.
today is the end of the month at work, that's gonna keep me busy for the day...
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
yeah, at the time i thought all those people were stupid for saying that.
At 18 your an adult, and you can vote, drink and do adult things, but now i see
the point in what they were saying.
i went from home with mom to married in less then two months. no time on my own.
no time to see things in the world that i had a chance in seeing with my own eyes.
i have always had one or two good friends. but when i married it was all about his friends, mine fell to the way side and i did not try to keep in contact. which was a good idea, because now they are all either divorce and remarried to scums or single and drug addicts.
once married we could have gone out on vacations to see things and we did a few times.
but now with a kid there is not time to do things by our selves. which i understand completely.
she needs attention and to be taken care of.
but my point in this is i now have friends that i love spending time with. they make me feel good about being me. they are there when i need them to be. "F" is too, but in his eyes "L" comes first.
i want to shout" WHAT ABOUT ME?" what about the things i want to do?
what about a weekend away from all that drives me nuts?
we spent a full week with the "family" in disney which was nice and relaxing to a degree.
the following weekend was fathers day weekend , which we spent with the "family" again.
and now this weekend, again with the "family". honestly, why so much "family time"?
i want to do things this summer and i guess i made the mistake to ASK for permission.
i should have said "I am going". i was shot down with the reply that "what about our familt vacation"?
no once have i ever said no you can not go to this and that with so and so.....not once.
he needs a hobby. and no, "L" is not a hobby.
this entry is crazy....from point to point. but it's out there.
i know a marriage is a two way street, but i am going the wrong way on a one way street.
it's give and take, but i give everyday the best i can, but i want to take things too.
spoiled? brat? nope i don't think so.
i need to talk more to "F" and let him know what i think.
i do not mind spending "family" time with them but every weekend or every other weekend is enough.
so in five weeks, i will be at home watching tv or cleaning the house or doing something to kill the time, when i could be enjoying my hobby life with friends.
that sounds selfish.
and to close, dad i will call you later in the week. i really do not feel like talking right now.
why did i ever get into scrapbooking? it's taken over my life
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
you vote for a Governor that makes a promise, not the idiot back peddles....
you would think that with blanco out, we would have a clean slate to start fresh. but with bobby in office, he has none nothing, and if he does not VETO that bill on his desk, i think a revolt will occur.
i did my part and emailed and called the state......the lines were busy for two days, but i was able to voice my concerns.
bobby: your committing a one term suicide if you do not veto that bill, i will forever change my standing with the Republican party and it will be your doing, stand up , take charge, grow balls and veto that bill.
Monday, June 16, 2008
my step sister got married saturday night in texas, wish i could have gone, but i will see them soon.
sunday went to church and chilled out, i did manage to get a few layouts done of disney and the cricut kicked my butt. trying to cut all that disney stuff will kill me before it's over...
i hope this week passes fast. no plans this weekend, but i miss my sleep
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
have you ever woken up in the morning and still felt tired? that was today...
got to epcot and went and watched honey i shrunk the audience. that was funny, lauren kinda freaked when the snake came out....
then off to our trip around the world.
canada, france, JAPAN....i found a new love! plum wine. i paid 6.99 for a Small sake glass of wine and it was FABULOUS!!!!!!
germany, becks beer, really good stuff, then off to china. me and lauren ate lunch there and you know what more beer....good stuff on a hot day.
mexico, fred ate there and then we went to ride the three caballeros ride.
back to main epcot and we wanted to ride soarin' but it was getting late and fast pass was for 7:30 and it was only 4:00. so we went to ride the finding nemo ride and headed back to the hotel, took a nap...oh that was wonderful, then swam in the pool.
anyway we rode DINO saur. i think that how they spelt it? that was neat too. we split up and we went to eat in asia of course chinse food! yeah.
we then went to wait for the train to go to nature watch, the train never showed after 45 minutes so we went to go to the walking trail, nice cool!
we listened to some african folk music, loved that too.
then met up with the rest of the family to go on the safari.
it started to rain and all the others left. fred lauren and i went to watch it's tough being a bug.
that was great, lauren got a kick out of that.
we all had dinner at the hotel and went to the lighted night parade at magic kingdom.
just watching the castle turn colors was magical
i really enjoyed this park. Lauren did too.
first off we went and rode STAR TOURS.
Lauren loved it. she was still afraid it was going to be like space mountain, but she loved it.
after that we went and saw Muppet's 3-d. it was so 80's but good. when we were walking out, OMG buzz and woody were standing right there. cool beans!
we had a quick lunch and went to the other side of the park, ran in to SIL and BIL. Fred went with them to ride tower of terror. no way they are gonna get my ass on that. so i called mom and checked on cookie.
well Fred loved the ride....what ever , just hearing the screams freaked me out.
TOTALLY WICKED! 0-60 in 2.5 seconds total darkness except the black lit signs. jamming away to aerosmith tunes. that rocked.
okay they talked me into riding tower of terror....the fear that overcome me once in the shaft was so crazy. never if we ever go back to WDW i will never ride that again.
so after prying my hands from the bars in that elevator shaft, me, lauren and savannah went to ride star tours for the 2nd time. lauren would not shut up telling savannah all about the ride, during the ride. i have a feeling when lauren grows up she will be one of the star wars nerds.
we grabbed a bite to eat and it was time to go, but lauren was upset....why? well she wanted to ride star tours again, so off me and her go. NUMBER 3 ride of the day.....
i had no idea it was gonna be like that. Lauren freaked the whole ride.
we ate lunch and went to "it's a small world" , if i ever hear that song again i will puke. over and over and over again....
we went to ride pirates of the Caribbean. now that we cool! great effects. we rode the old paddle boat and then mike's laugh floor, that was so cute, i love monsters, INC.
then i met chip and dale.....Lauren was tired of taking pictures, but i love chip and dale, so i did the autograph thing and picture.